Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Plans to give you hope and a future

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Six months before my wedding, my mom and best friend passed away from heart failure. It was very sudden and I was in shock. I was only 22 years old and living with only her. I went from being safe and comfortable to taking care of my own household. I had to grow up fast. I wasn't making much money then, I had a part time job at Macy's and all the bills weren't going to be met. Thankfully God's timing (even though, i wish I never lost her) is perfect. I knew enough to trust in Him.

My wonder fiance (my husband now) and his parents helped all they could. They helped provide a wedding and a future for the two of us. We married and bills were being paid, for a while. Then two years into our marriage, my husband was laid off. We went through savings quickly and then debt started to rise. He couldn't find work. We lost everything and were forced to move in with his parents, who again stepped into help. A few months after we moved in with his parents, we learned we were expecting our first child. That week he lost his truck. It took time and he eventually found work. After more time, we were able to move out of his parents into an apartment. I learned from this experience to be humble and to trust in God.

We all stress over the downs of our lives, but the ups are just around the corner. God knows where you are headed, you just have to trust in Him. 

Today I pray for my future and the future for my children. I pray we all learn during our low times and remember it's all in Your hands. For us to keep our eyes up, looking for the ups that are around the corner.

Monday, August 28, 2017

A new day - devotional

Today is a new day. I am starting my daily devotionals. I am not picking a specific one from a specific site. I am just trying different ones till i find the one I love.

Today's devotional is from Billy Graham. Here's the link 

It's all about surrendering to the Lord. I have quite a bit to surrender. Lots of worry and sorrow, stress and anger. I do not want to become bitter. I want to be happy.

Romans 6:19 - Just as you used to be slaves to all kinds of sin, so now you must let yourself be slaves to all that is right a Holy.  

Romans 12 1-2 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

This is the perfect first day devotion. God is always on point, but really on point to me today.

I will work on letting the stress of the day melt into Him and off my shoulders.

Todays I pray for my Husband as he's at work, that his stress will not be great. And he finds some down relaxing time during the chaos.

I pray for those in TX during the hurricane. That they are safe and the damage isn't to bad.

I pray for Our country and our President as he has to make huge decisions every day. And how the country is divided right now, that everyone may come together and not let different opinions push us away from eachother.

I also pray for our decision to move. Although we are not currently looking for a house, we are looking at all the things we need to do to get this house ready. I do pray for the future and when we do start looking, it will be an easy process to find what we are looking for. 

Trials, Tribulation, and more importantly Transmutation

   I've have my share of flaws, I am a sinner. I have been hurt. I have fought hard, fallen, pushed, gotten up and dusted off, and prevailed.

I recently had some trials and tribulations on my life and I am trying to make a transmutation. I am not going to go into all the details of my trials, but I am going to go into my transmutations.

I'm going to  add a daily Bible study/meditation. I need to get closer to my Lord and Savior. I have had Him in the trunk of my mind for far to long. I have been a Christian for a very long time and it's never been the first thing on my mind or the last for that matter. I pray. I pray for my family, people I know, people I don't know that well, and even those I don't care for (for whatever reason) But I don't ever really pray for myself. It's usually a quick please help such and such and I am done. I need to meditate and grow in His word. Bring myself down on my knees and become humble to what I know I should be doing. Then carry this over to my children.

I have been trying off and on to get healthy and lose weight. I know how to do it. I've done so much research into the health of my own body. I start and do well for a while, then depression takes over and then I no longer care about my health. All I want is the quick pleasure of bad foods and to not have to plan on cooking for the good ones. I make excuses like "I don't have a gym to go to, so why even change my eating if O'm not exercising" or "It costs to much to eat health" or "It's to much work with a busy family." Or my favorite " It's finally quiet and my time so I should be able to indulge with the kind of day I had" I also think when I start my changes, I like to over think and make it known to all and document it with a blog or page on Facebook. I burn myself out before I even get close to hitting my 1st goal. To fix this, I am going to do baby steps in the right direction. Focus on 1 new thing a week or 2 before changing another thing. Make that my new normal. It took me several years to get to the weight and size I am, so it am going to take my time losing it, by one step at a time. I do eventually want to join a gym, just not right now.

A hobby is needed. Something I have real passion for. I enjoy writing and reading. I enjoy my healthy natural lifestyle. I like to scrapbook (although I haven't done that one in 12 years) I use to love figure skating (this one has fallen a bit, since my current body cannot handle to be on the ice.) I just need to find something I love to do and do it, with or without other people. Just get there and do it. I need this because I need something that will make me feel complete.

I am a very passionate person. And I am passionate about my family, their health and well being. I do alot of research into anything I do. I mean I am a stay at home mom, so I have some time (not alot) but I use my time to dig deep into things. I also am very passionate about being natural. I have learned that chemicals in your life can have a detrimental impact on your health. 
I learned early on hat vaccines are not as good as the medical field says they are. Thankfully it happened before any of my children had a chance to have a reaction. I want to work on helping the vaccine choice community advocate for vaccine choice in legistlation in my state and country.
I also have learned to take chemicals out of my home. I am passionate about Norwex. Its a chemical free solution to clean your house with water and a norwex cloth.
I am working hard to remove processed foods in my house and fill it with wholesome natural foods that are organic and GMO free. I also am looking into changing our hygiene products and even how we store our foods.